You stare into oblivion until you can't help but look up. In the distance, you see the point where continuing to save yourself becomes worse than death.
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SCP-9940
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Item#: 9940
Level3
Containment Class:
keter
Secondary Class:
cernunnos
Disruption Class:
ekhi
Risk Class:
danger
Special Containment Procedures
No cure nor alternative method of managing SCP-9940 is known to the Foundation at this time. The SCP-9940 Research Team at Site-19 is tasked with identifying and studying SCP-9940-1 instances, with the goal of determining how the anomaly functions and how it may be managed.
Short-term subjects are to be provided with sedatives, intravenous pain relievers, and epidural anesthesia as deemed necessary. No life-saving efforts are to be performed, beyond those intended to prevent premature exsanguination.
Description
SCP-9940 is an anomalous medical condition, with sufferers referred to by the designation SCP-9940-1.
Magnetic Resonance Imaging of two late-stage instances of SCP-9940-1.
When an instance of SCP-9940-1 neglects to engage in penetrative sexual congress for a case-dependent period of time, their abdominal cavity will begin to internally deform. Initial expansion begins with the upper vaginal canal, cervix, and uterus before spreading. No anomalous physical elasticity of the affected area, nor decrease in the number of pain receptors has been observed. As SCP-9940 progresses, internal organs in the path of this expansion are compressed, displaced, ejected, and/or punctured.
If SCP-9940's progression were to continue indefinitely, it likely would not cease until the sufferer's abdomen had been rendered virtually hollow, with all organs expelled from the body or compressed upwards into the ribcage. This has not yet been observed, as death will inherently occur much earlier, with the most common proximate causes being blood loss and sepsis following bowel rupture. Notably advanced cases may occasionally end in death caused by traumatic asphyxia.
Should the instance engage in sexual intercourse after the onset of SCP-9940, the prior expansion will revert, and the resulting lacerations will be replaced by a thick layer of scar tissue. No other healing properties are observed. If reversal occurs beyond SCP-9940's earlier stages, the newly-formed scar tissue is likely to irreparably impede the function of vital organs and blood vessels.
Despite the primary method of symptom management being consistent and frequent sexual conduct, the anomaly itself has no effect on the sufferer's libido. SCP-9940-1 instances who have experienced multiple mild activations with reversal soon after onset will often display an increase in sex drive, but this is likely to be a mental association between arousal and the relief of pain.
Short-Term Case Study
Subject: D-29318 (3 of 17)
Introduction
SCP-9940's Short-Term Study Group is the primary manner by which the later stages of SCP-9940 are studied. There have been a total of 17 individuals in this group during the period of study, with 16 of them being individuals found under the care of doctors among the general public. Most cases were advanced prior to Foundation involvement — to the point where the subject would not be expected to survive, notwithstanding medical intervention and the satiation of the anomaly. To date, only one subject belonging to the Short-Term Study Group was in Foundation custody at the time of symptom onset.
NOTE: As required by Ethics Committee guidelines, SCP-9940-1 instances must be deemed terminally ill to be approved for Short-Term Study. Class-D Personnel are exempt from this requirement.
Subject Information
D-29318 (redesignated SUBJ-9264-ST) is a presumably non-anomalous female, born on 06-19-1964. It was taken into custody on 11-08-1992, after it shot and fatally wounded a Foundation field agent. It reported a history of sexual abuse as an adolescent, with a boyfriend identified as the primary perpetrator. A history of familial abuse was also attested to, but the subject would not provide an answer as to the nature of this abuse.
SUBJ-9264-ST became involved in full service sex work at the age of 18, after it was no longer welcome at its parents' residence. At age 26, it desisted from its previous form of sex work and began appearing in low-budget adult videos. During these productions, it engaged in frequent, unprotected intercourse. It is likely to have been an instance of SCP-9940-1 for far longer than initially believed.
Events of Case Study
Midday on November 11th, 1992, SUBJ-9264-ST began complaining of intense abdominal pain, stating that it had been bleeding vaginally for approximately 36 hours. These concerns were dismissed, as it was believed by guards that the subject was either menstruating or had suffered a miscarriage. For approximately two hours after this complaint, the subject remained unobserved in its holding cell.
11-11-1992 - 14:00
Two guards return to the area after hearing multiple Class-D individuals shouting. Upon arrival, they are urged to observe SUBJ-9264-ST, who has recently started to wail. It can be seen laying in its bunk in the fetal position, with blood pooling underneath its lower torso and buttocks.
11-11-1992 - 15:00
SUBJ-9264-ST is brought to a medic who is able to perform an ultrasound. The scan shows a 4cm dilation of its cervix with no apparent cause, as it is confirmed at the same time that the subject is not pregnant. At this time it is heavily suspected that the subject is an instance of SCP-9940-1.
11-11-1992 - 22:00
The subject is placed in a medical containment chamber for observation. It is given sedatives and sterilized with iodine to prevent infection. Dr. 'A.B.', the SCP-9940 Research Head is informed at this time, after which he gathers several researchers to attend and document the observation. They arrive shortly after and begin to assess the subject.
11-12-1992 - 10:00
SUBJ-9264-ST is given an MRI, revealing that its cervical dilation has increased to 8cm. Its uterus has begun to distend upwards and outwards. Rupture within a day's time is likely. Bleeding continues to worsen, due to the onset of cervical tearing. Subject is given fluids and intravenous morphine.
11-12-1992 - 18:00
SUBJ-9264-ST remains sedated during this time. It's condition rapidly deteriorates, with the subject briefly falling close to death after a period of severe bleeding. It is observed that the uterus has ruptured. The subject soon experiences urinary incontinence, due to sudden compression of the bladder against the abdominal wall. Small blood vessels are cauterized in an attempt to stop the bleeding. Additional efforts to prevent both infection and exsanguination are somewhat successful.
11-13-1992 - 7:00
Further tearing of the cervix and upper vaginal canal is observed. Through the largest of these tears, a loop of the subject's small intestine is visible. Subject shows signs of pain and is given epidural anesthesia in lieu of intravenous morphine. Methods of preventing the partial expulsion of the subject's intestines are discussed but not decided upon. Surgical methods are not to be attempted, as further expansion would render any efforts ineffective.
11-13-1992 - 19:00
Cross-sectional MRI shows a void reaching the upper umbilical region with a maximum diameter of 14cm. Distension of the abdomen is visible externally. More of the subject's small intestine has become visible. At that time, it is decided that an attempt will be made to manually prevent its expulsion. Due to the rapid progression of SCP-9940, this is not successful, instead causing the small intestine to rupture. Area irrigated with saline solution, bleeding mitigated.
11-14-1992 - 6:00
SUBJ-9264-ST's stomach has been significantly compressed against the abdominal wall, yet it does not rupture. Emesis occurs, followed by aspiration, after which the subject is intubated. An abdominal laparoscopy is performed, showing severe organ displacement. Further intestinal rupture occurs during this window of time.
11-14-1992 - 12:00
At this time, SUBJ-9244-ST's lungs become affected by the progression of SCP-9940. Due to the compression of its intestines, stomach, and liver into the subject's rib cage, oxygen saturation has decreased rapidly. Additional laparoscopic imaging displays internal bleeding that can no longer be adequately controlled.
11-14-1992 - 23:00
SUBJ-9264-ST expires, and its time of death is called at 23:14. Autopsy reveals severe lobar damage resulting in poor oxygen intake. Cause of death has been marked as mechanical asphyxia, with other notable complications being blood loss and infection.
The following case file has been marked TOP-SECRET at the behest of Site-19 Administration.
Information that has been redacted or expunged is to remain as such.
Long-Term Case Study
Subject: SUBJ-0169-LT (1 of 1)
Introduction
SUBJ-0169-LT is the only approved subject of Long-Term Study, principally due to her ability to reliably abate SCP-9940’s effects without the involvement of the SCP-9940 Research Team. As long as the subject's health remains within an acceptable range, observation is permitted to continue.
As SUBJ-0169-LT is inherently more at-risk for health complications, due to both preexisting conditions and her status as a subject, she is to be subject to magnetic resonance imaging on a weekly basis. This is to be conducted concurrently with her additional routine medical needs. The subject is to be provided a parapsychological counselor should one be requested.
Subject Information
SUBJ-0169-LT
SUBJ-0169-LT is a sapient humanoid female, born on 01-18-1969 in Pokrovskoye, Tyumen Oblast, USSR. After she was discovered to be anomalous in 1995, she briefly stood at risk of containment, but was permitted to maintain her status as an unrestricted member of Foundation personnel following an approved O5-Council petition. She had been working as a Level-██ Junior Researcher since September of 1992.
By the time she was identified as a SCP-9940-1 instance, she was working as a Level-██ Researcher at Site-██ — a position she achieved after being employed by the Foundation for approximately ten years. It is estimated that the onset of her condition may have occurred as early as 1996 — making hers the longest known case of an SCP-9940-1 instance's survival.
Initial Contact
Parties: SUBJ-0169-LT, Dr. 'L.H.', PMD
On July 8th, 2002, SUBJ-0169-LT appeared at the Department of Anomalous Medicine, reporting that she had noticed vaginal bleeding after approximately 24 hours of moderate cramping. This occurred despite a diagnosis of primary amenorrhea, rendering the typical explanation unlikely.
During the appointment, SUBJ-0169-LT was given an ultrasound, revealing vaginal and uterine damage that was potentially consistent with the early stages of SCP-9940. While conversing with the ultrasound technician, she stated that her spouse had been away at a conference for the previous six days. It was decided that an urgent investigation would be necessary.
Patient Interview
Dr. 'L.H.', a Senior Paraphysician who had previously attended to SCP-9940-1 instances, was requisitioned to consult with SUBJ-0169-LT to determine her status.
PARAPHYSICIAN'S NOTE: Patient appears concerned about bleeding, yet reports being apprehensive about seeking help prior to today. Concerned that their other diagnoses may be contributing factors, but this cannot be confirmed. Seeking consult from patient's routine paraphysicians. Patient resides in on-site housing and is not permitted to travel off-site without approval. They are not exposed to hazardous materials at work, and no instances of contamination, gas leaks, or similar have been reported within their housing block.
No sexual history in medical file. Negative pregnancy test dated September of 1992, negative annual STD panels 1992-2002. Patient has been previously diagnosed with hyperandrogenism and bilateral fallopian tube agenesis, but asserts no urinary or sexual dysfunction.
Should this be a case of SCP-9940, patient would be considered a high urgency instance of SCP-9940-1. Patient interview conducted on 07-09-2002.
'L.H.': You said you had two previous or current partners. When was the first one?
SUBJ-0169-LT: 1989, early 1990.
'L.H.': College boyfriend?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Not really. I was in university, this was in the Soviet Union, and there was a… kinda mid-level politician I had to work for. Ugh… this is so embarrassing.
SUBJ-0169-LT takes a deep breath.
SUBJ-0169-LT: We did it for a while, just in his office. It was only… about nine months? I swear, my parents would have killed me if they knew back then.
'L.H.': Did that affect you negatively?
SUBJ-0169-LT: It wasn't that big a deal, or anything. As a grown-up — like, a real one, not how I thought I was back then, I honestly feel worse for his wife. I was immature. Before that, my life had just been school, and chess, and school, and chess, ever since I was little. I didn't think about all that stuff.
'L.H.': Jeez. How far'd you get with all that chess?
SUBJ-0169-LT: International Master. So, like one step below Grandmaster. Enough to impress people at parties, if I went to them.
'L.H.': Wow, do you still play? I know they do tournaments here every once in a while — seen ads on the bulletin boards.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Not lately.
'L.H.': Sorry to hear that.
'L.H.' pauses.
'L.H.': Back to the medical questions, I'm assuming you used protection with him?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Yes.
'L.H.': Every time?
SUBJ-0169-LT chuckles.
SUBJ-0169-LT: His father went crazy from syphilis — I don't know if he ever stood in the same room as a woman without a condom.
'L.H.': Got it. And you're sure there was nobody in between?
SUBJ-0169-LT: There was not.
'L.H.': Anyone you might not want to tell me about?
SUBJ-0169-LT: No?
'L.H.': Maybe if something bad happened, or you're afraid of what someone might say if you're honest? Or you think it might make you look bad? You can tell me.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I promise, it's only been two people. Him, and my husband.
PARAPHYSICIAN'S NOTE: Patient has a potential history of abuse by an authority figure. Denied additional sexual relationships — appeared defiant and suspicious when asked. Line of questioning ceased for the purpose of maintaining rapport.
'L.H.': So, when exactly were you married?
SUBJ-0169-LT: The wedding was last January.
'L.H.': Congratulations, hun. How long were you together?
SUBJ-0169-LT: About six years… yeah, I know we waited a while.
'L.H.': That's a while! Where'd you meet him?
Silence.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Oh, uh, he helped me with some paperwork. I was dealing with a lot after they found out I was anomalous.
'L.H.': That's sweet of him, yeah?
SUBJ-0169-LT: He— he told me he couldn't just watch me struggle.
'L.H.': Did he?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Nobody's ever cared about me like he has.
'L.H.': I'm sure your family…
SUBJ-0169-LT inhales sharply.
'L.H.': Sorry! Okay, I'm going to ask the same question I asked earlier — do you use any protection with him?
SUBJ-0169-LT: We've only been with each other, and I can't even get pregnant. Why does that matter?
'L.H.' sighs.
'L.H.': Your documented history is very sparse. Just trying to get a more complete picture.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Oh.
'L.H.': I'd really appreciate it.
SUBJ-0169-LT: With my husband? I don't think we ever have, if I'm being honest.
PARAPHYSICIAN'S NOTE: Additional information about SUBJ-0169-LT's relationship history is necessary. Hopefully, a pattern can be established when compared to other known cases of SCP-9940.
Correspondence (ARCHIVED)
Date: 10-29-1995
To: 'R.J.' (Ethics Committee Liaison, Site-19)
From: 'M.A.' (Administrative Office Manager, Site-19)
Subject: 'C.V.' — Potential Impropriety
Good afternoon,
Awkward to bring up, but I'm getting concerned about 'C.V.'. I've received reports from some of my staff, saying he was getting pretty close with an anomaly. He petitioned the O5-Council for her a few months ago and even back then, folks in the office were saying he was practically obsessive about it.
Just wanted to let you know that something might come up. Wouldn't be a surprise if someone makes a report.
With Regards,
'M.A.'
Correspondence (ARCHIVED)
Date: 10-31-1995
To: 'M.A.' (Administrative Office Manager, Site-19)
From: 'R.J.' (Ethics Committee Liaison, Site-19)
Subject: re: 'C.V.' — Potential Impropriety
Define 'pretty close'? Are we saying that this could be a potential containment breach, or is this an interpersonal situation?
'R.J.'
Correspondence (ARCHIVED)
Date: 11-01-1995
To: 'R.J.' (Ethics Committee Liaison, Site-19)
From: 'M.A.' (Administrative Office Manager, Site-19)
Subject: re: re: 'C.V.' — Potential Impropriety
My apologies. Yes, this is an interpersonal situation. The anomaly is a Junior Researcher, and I've heard talk from multiple people that 'C.V' may be courting her — or, more likely, just plain sleeping with her. To my knowledge, nobody has confronted him yet, but people have brought things to the attention of myself and other staff members.
Not asking for any dramatic or decisive action at the moment — I don't have enough evidence for a report, just giving you a heads up.
'M.A.'
Recording I
Parties: ██ ███████ ████████, SUBJ-0169-LT
Context: ████████ and SUBJ-0169-LT were recorded in their shared on-site quarters on 07-11-2002, after a followup appointment with Dr. 'L.H.'. The inclusion of sensitive audio was unintentional and has been accordingly expunged from the transcript.
[BEGIN TRANSCRIPT]
A loud bang is heard.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Что за черт!?
████████: Just the fuckin' TV remote, relax…
SUBJ-0169-LT: Wait, what's wrong?
████████: What's wrong is I found out that you were at A-Med earlier, from someone else. You have any idea when you were planning to let me know?
SUBJ-0169-LT sighs.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I don't know? I'm sorry.
████████: Oh, are you?
SUBJ-0169-LT: I just didn't want to worry you.
████████: They said it could be serious. What the hell were you thinking?
SUBJ-0169-LT: I don't know, it's probably just—
████████: I don't give shit about "probably". You better tell me if something's happening. Got that?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Jesus, you already look through my medical paperwork like it belongs to you. What's next, showing up to hold my hand?
████████: Maybe? Are you gonna make it so I have to?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Make it so you have to?
████████: If you won't co-operate, what do you expect me to do?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Holy shit, you're literally acting like you're my warden.
████████ sighs.
████████: Come on, warden? We're married now and—
SUBJ-0169-LT: That means I'm beholden to you?
████████: Yeah, kind of.
SUBJ-0169-LT scoffs.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I'm done with this, this is insane.
SUBJ-0169-LT begins to walk out of the room. ████████ is then heard briskly walking across the room to her.
████████: You better not get like that with me.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Let. Me. Go.
SUBJ-0169-LT is heard breathing heavily.
████████: I'm just holding you by the arm, stand here and talk to me like an adult.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Then, stop treating me like a child!
████████: Stop acting like a kid then. You're thirty-three, this is embarrassing.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Why— why are you being like this to me?
████████: Come on… don't do this shit, you're acting up.
SUBJ-0169-LT speaks in a shaky voice.
SUBJ-0169-LT: You act like this and you expect me not to get upset?
████████: Listen.
SUBJ-0169-LT sighs.
SUBJ-0169-LT: What now?
████████: I don't want to have to find out about your health from random goddamn people. That's fucking it.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I know, but—
████████: Listen to me. If they'll tell me, then you better tell me first.
SUBJ-0169-LT: And if they won't?
████████: You know what the hell I want. I can't help you if you don't let me, so get better at following directions.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I wasn't trying to—
████████: Tell me you understand.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I wasn't—
████████: Stop. Tell me you understand.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I can see why that might be concerning.
████████: Might?
Silence.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Would…
████████: Come on, where would I be if something happened to you and I couldn't do shit about it, because you wouldn't even tell me?
SUBJ-0169-LT: I— I don't know. Nowhere good.
████████: No shit, nowhere good. If you talk to me, we won't have to find out what that's like. That make sense?
SUBJ-0169-LT groans in frustration, the couch creaks.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Yes! Please, I'm tired of this.
████████: Listen, I am too.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Can we just stop?
████████: You want to?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Please.
████████: Then, what do you say?
SUBJ-0169-LT: I'm sorry.
████████: Good. I love you.
████████'s footsteps are heard.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Wait.
████████: What? I have work to do.
Silence.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Can you stay with me?
████████ chuckles, returning to the couch to sit next to SUBJ-0169-LT.
████████: You know, you're so needy after we fight.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I don't want to be alone.
████████ sits with SUBJ-0169-LT on the couch in relative silence. Soon, the silence is broken by ████████ asking if SUBJ-0169-LT 'still loves [him]', which is answered enthusiastically in the affirmative. They remain quiet for several minutes.
████████ suggests that SUBJ-0169-LT should sit on his lap. Captured audio and verbal utterances confirm that she complies with his request, after which they begin to kiss. SUBJ-0169-LT moans. He is heard facetiously asking her to 'sit still', then cursing under his breath. Soon after, she stands up and rustling fabric can be heard over the recording.
He instructs her to 'get on [her] knees', stating that he will leave to attend to paperwork if she does not wish to do so. She rebuts by saying that she 'just wanted to have sex', to which he promises that the act will occur if she does what he requested. SUBJ-0169-LT complies, stating that she was likely 'just being impatient'.
Sensitive content has been expunged.
SUBJ-0169-LT gags, gasps for air, then coughs for approximately 20 seconds.
████████: Easy there, you're fine.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Fuck… can you stop holding my head down like that?
████████: Too much? I mean, you usually don't mind — half the time you're the one choking yourself on it, I don't have to touch your head at all.
SUBJ-0169-LT coughs.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Not for that long!
████████: Until you're red in the face…
SUBJ-0169-LT: I was about to throw up.
████████: Now, or?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Now. Please, can we stop?
████████ sighs.
████████: How's about what you asked for earlier? Is that better?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Yeah… I— sorry, this just isn't working for me today.
SUBJ-0169-LT is heard standing up, then cursing, stating that she feels dizzy. ████████ tells her to 'be careful' in an exasperated tone. Captured audio confirms that she attempts to straddle ████████ on the couch but is pushed away. She then expresses annoyance.
████████ tells her that he would rather she lay over the arm of the couch. They remain in silence for approximately 20 seconds. He asks the subject why that 'isn't good enough for [her]', to which she apologizes and answers that his suggestion is good enough. ████████ states that he loves SUBJ-0169-LT. Footsteps are heard, then the far end of the couch creaks.
Sensitive content has been expunged.
████████: Did you like that, honey?
SUBJ-0169-LT: I always do.
████████: That's my girl. Never met anyone else like you.
SUBJ-0169-LT sighs.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Yeah.
████████: What are you upset about?
SUBJ-0169-LT: I'm not, I'm just thinking.
████████: About?
SUBJ-0169-LT: You know that feeling I get sometimes? Like I'm not in my own body.
████████: You told me that went away?
SUBJ-0169-LT: It's different during sex though — I don't know, it just feels like… floating and vertigo.
SUBJ-0169-LT takes a deep breath.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Not in a bad way, I don't think.
[END TRANSCRIPT]
Voice Memorandum
Context: The following voice memorandum was recorded on 07-12-2002 by Dr. 'L.H.', following consultation with the subject and ████████ regarding her condition.
Earlier today, I informed LT and her husband of SCP-9940. It went… weirdly.
She showed up on time — red in the face, lab coat still on. Said she came from Sub-9 in C-Block and they didn't let her leave until ten minutes before the appointment. I told her it would've been fine if she was late, but she was like 'no, no, I couldn't be rude like that', so I just thanked her for being considerate. Sounded anxious as hell. Usually people with poor time management are also of the chronically late variety — but, I'm not surprised if stress is behind it.
Her husband on the other hand— first, nobody bothered to tell me that he's second-in-command of the Site. Not even her. Took note of that, very weird.
He came in at quarter past, on his cell phone, and just kept talking. I was a little freaked — thought I must have missed some evaluation or some Admin observation. He just stood in the corner of the room for a good minute, chatting away — until LT turned around and got him to hang up. She told him off, and my first thought was 'holy shit, what are you thinking?'… then she told him she loved him.
I said to her 'hey, wow, I didn't know your husband was the Deputy Site Director,' and she looked at me like I had three heads.
Anyways, he finally got off the phone, and I started my whole spiel about how both of them are no stranger to her handling the struggles of living with an anomaly, being unwell, understanding risk, this, that, and the third…
He tells me to just give it to them straight — clearly teed, at least somewhat. LT looks terrified, given how urgent we got her in here. So, I gave them most of the extent of what 9940 does to people.
He asks me, 'What's the difference? I promise she'll never get to that point.' and honest to God, I could barely find the words. I was taken aback, seriously. I knew they both heard me, its not like he didn't get it. She apologized for him, telling me that he's just desensitized from her other medical issues. She was pretty scared but, on the other hand, she also implied that he was right, which was… interesting.
Went through some paperwork, scheduled her for a laparoscopy to assess the damage, and that was pretty much it. Of all the times I've had to tell folks they had something life threatening, this was by far the calmest.
I mean, they got up to leave, and he was back on the cell phone before they even left the room.
Recording II
Parties: ██ ███████ ████████, SUBJ-0169-LT
Context: ████████ and SUBJ-0169-LT were recorded in their shared on-site quarters. This log contains a conversation that took place after they were informed of SUBJ-0169-LT's status as an instance of SCP-9940-1.
[BEGIN TRANSCRIPT]
████████ is sitting on the bed, with SUBJ-0169-LT standing next to it.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I guess this is your dream come true, isn't it?
████████: What is? Having to worry every time I'm away from you?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Don't play stupid.
████████: What does it matter to you? You're the one who wants me to fuck you all the time.
SUBJ-0169-LT: It's life or death!
████████: It always was. Only difference is that you know about it.
SUBJ-0169-LT scoffs.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Pretty big difference, isn't it?
████████: Not really.
SUBJ-0169-LT: You're not the one who'll die without me. You're just the one who gets to feel like a savior for getting off inside of me.
████████: You think I wouldn't care if you died? 'Specially like that? It's horrible.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Ugh. Seriously? I never said that.
████████: I'm not the only one getting off either, by the way.
SUBJ-0169-LT scoffs.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Okay?
████████: You know what… what if I said no, then? Would you be satisfied? Would you feel like you were right, if I made you beg like you did the day after we found out?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Please don't.
████████: Good girl — just the first word, though.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Seriously?
████████: Do it.
SUBJ-0169-LT: No.
████████: Do it. How many days has it been?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Three.
████████: You sure, honey? Maybe it was longer.
SUBJ-0169-LT: It was three.
████████: Thursday, Wednesday, Tuesday… no, I think it was at least the weekend? Wasn't it?
SUBJ-0169-LT: It was Tuesday. Maybe Monday? Fine, four days, max.
████████: Maybe Sunday, maybe Saturday?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Fuck you.
████████: Probably best to be safe.
SUBJ-0169-LT: My memory is fine, believe it or not.
████████: But, if I'm right… how does your belly feel? Any pain?
SUBJ-0169-LT: No?
████████: Anything else?
SUBJ-0169-LT: I don't know — doesn't hurt.
████████: You sure?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Maybe a little queasy?
████████: A little?
SUBJ-0169-LT takes a deep breath, then sighs.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Don't do this to me.
████████: To you? What if you're misunderestimating and get yourself sick?
SUBJ-0169-LT: I'm fine. It couldn't have been that long.
████████: But you don't actually know.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Come on. I'm not even bleeding.
████████: When's the last time you checked?
SUBJ-0169-LT: What do you even want? If you wanna do it, then just do it… I'm so over it.
SUBJ-0169-LT flops onto the bed.
████████: Mm, I could go either way, really. Maybe not, I mean, you said it yourself — it's only been three days, right? Not like we have to.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Until you fucked with my head!
████████: You didn't believe me until I said no.
SUBJ-0169-LT: You didn't say no until I said yes — until I doubted myself.
████████: See, you shouldn't do that. You're such a pushover. Got no problem talking, complaining, making all those assertions, and shit… but the minute I suggest something else, you're swaying in the wind. It's pathetic. You didn't used to be like this.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I didn't even talk back then. I didn't have to be pushed over.
████████: Because you needed me. You needed my help, you were so sick you could barely get out of bed half the time. For a while back then, even.
SUBJ-0169-LT: You know what? You know what… I think this is your fantasy. You get to put my life in danger whenever you want, and all you have to do is keep your dick in your pants. Then, either I beg like I did the other day, or you wait until I'm bleeding so you can really feel like you're saving me.
████████ scoffs.
████████: Not when you're actually in danger.
SUBJ-0169-LT: What does lying about that even get you?
████████: You said yesterday that you want our relationship to be more equal, right?
SUBJ-0169-LT: And then I called it a fantasy, yes.
████████: If you want me to start being like you, yeah. It is a fantasy. On the other hand, who am I to keep you from being more assertive?
SUBJ-0169-LT: I'll assert that it's only been three days.
████████: Doubt it.
SUBJ-0169-LT: There's a really easy way to fix that, and I said I don't give a damn anymore. I'm over it. Just do it.
████████: Nope. Now what?
[END TRANSCRIPT]
Supplemental Documentation
SCP-9940 in a long-term patient with primary infertility
SUBJ-0169-LT is a 33-year-old humanoid female. Her anomaly was discovered in April of 1995, but the Department of Anomalous Medicine did not begin conducting in-depth physical study until December of 1996. It is believed that the subject was already an instance of SCP-9940-1 at that time.
Figure 1. Uterus and ovaries of SUBJ-0169-LT, 2002.
During the original 1996 study conducted by the Department of Anomalous Medicine, a laparoscopy and hysteroscopy were performed. No adhesions to the intestinal serosa could be observed. Neither the left, nor right adnexa were visible, which resulted in SUBJ-0169-LT being diagnosed with bilateral fallopian tube agenesis. No remnant fallopian tissue or anomalous structures were detected. Pelvic inflammation was observed, yet no evidence of a viral or bacterial infection was found. While unknown, it is possible that this may have been an early sign of damage caused by SCP-9940.
Another laparoscopy was performed in 2002, showing extensive adhesions to the intestinal serosa and abdominal wall (as seen in Figure 1). SUBJ-0169-LT reported experiencing prior abdominal pain, yet she perceived this as normal, given unrelated health conditions that also cause her chronic pain. It is a legitimate concern that should SCP-9940 not be properly managed, the subject's health will further deteriorate. Should that occur, the risk of bowel obstruction and worsening pain cannot be overlooked.
Recording III
Parties: ██ ███████ ████████, SUBJ-0169-LT
Context: This log was recorded the day following Recording II, and follows a similar line of discussion. At the time, what exactly was being referred to was unknown.
[BEGIN TRANSCRIPT]
████████: Quit fucking crying. You know what I told you.
SUBJ-0169-LT: You're gonna let me die.
████████: Never said that.
SUBJ-0169-LT: You don't care if I do… if you cared, you wouldn't say no.
████████: Now you're sounding like the kinda guy you think I am.
SUBJ-0169-LT: It's different!
████████: Is it?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Please…
████████: Get your hands off me.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Why!?
████████: Okay, okay. Shhh, listen.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Please, please, p— please.
████████: Listen. I told you that if you want it, you're gonna have to take it. Just like you say I do to you.
SUBJ-0169-LT: No. I'm not like you. I won't ever be like you.
████████: I gave you my blessing, baby. Stand up for once. Can't just lay there like a fucking whore and stare at the ceiling with your— with your doll eyes, then cry when I say no. What if I was yanking at your belt like you're doing to me right now, huh?
SUBJ-0169-LT: It's not the same. You don't have to, because of me. Because I don't say no.
████████: You sure as hell can't now. Wasted opportunity, if you ask me. And get off the floor, come on.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Please, ███████. I'll do anything. You can— you can shove it down my throat until I puke, you can do it up my ass until I bleed. I'd be happy, even…
████████: Anything to make you the victim. Big surprise.
SUBJ-0169-LT: The victim? I am the fucking victim. I've been for the past seven years!
████████: You wanna leave me, then? I don't have you trapped here anymore.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Anymore. How generous.
████████: I never wanted you contained. Besides, nobody would stand for it anyways. They'd see it as some breakup retaliation bullshit.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Yeah, now.
████████: I told you, I never wanted that. You got that in your head back then and never let it go.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Please, let's not talk about this.
████████: Fine. You gotta get out of this mindset, though.
SUBJ-0169-LT lets out an exasperated sigh.
SUBJ-0169-LT: What 'mindset' is that?
████████: The idea you have that I just do shit to you and you never have a role in it to speak of. The idea that I threaten you. You called me a rapist, honey — I know you apologized, but you have to realize how serious that is.
SUBJ-0169-LT: It's not like that even matters now, with this stupid fucking anomaly… now you can just do whatever you want, so long as I have the will to live.
████████: Nice guilt trip.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Should I lie?
████████: Seriously? You know, I almost think you find comfort in it, now — in believing that nothing you do is your choice. You just get to sit there and look pretty, go when I say go, and spread your legs whenever you want something from me. Then you act like I've been doing God knows what to you this whole time, and the only reason you don't go to Judiciary is because I threaten you.
SUBJ-0169-LT begins to cry, but stops herself.
████████: Don't be a baby.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I don't care anymore.
████████: See, that's a problem.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I— I know, I just…
████████: If you're smart, we're fixing this tonight.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Wait, I—
████████: 10-4?
[END TRANSCRIPT]
NOTE: Within an interview with the Ethics Committee prior to his marriage in 2001, ████████ had denied using SUBJ-0169-LT's anomalous status as leverage to obtain compliance. This cannot be addressed at this time, though he is observed repeating the behavior with SUBJ-0169-LT's status as an instance of SCP-9940-1.
Recovered Audiovisual Footage
On 10-13-2002, two tapes were recovered from within ████████'s office, labeled "Bashka Tape 1" and "Bashka Tape 2". The footage found on the tapes was apparently recorded on the same date as the vague conversation transcribed above. These tapes contain explicit interactions between ████████ and SUBJ-0169-LT, related to the management of SCP-9940.
"Bashka Tape 1"
00:00
Video footage begins depicting ████████'s desk within his and SUBJ-0169-LT's on-site housing unit. The camera is held, then almost dropped within the first 10 seconds of the recording, an exclamation of 'shit' is audible in response. A hand reaches out and grabs a second tape from a drawer before walking into the kitchen.
00:03
████████ places the camera on the table. It sits facing a glass cabinet, allowing him to be seen retrieving items via his reflection. SUBJ-0169-LT is heard saying something unintelligible in the background, her voice portraying a tone of anguish. ████████ tells her to 'just sit down and relax', then places several items on the table.
Items Intended for Use During Incident
Item
Description
Sedatives
Diazepam, blister pack containing five tablets of 10mg each.
Vasodilators
Sildenafil, blister pack containing four tablets of 100mg each.
Handcuffs
Standard black metal handcuffs used by Site Security officers. No key was included, nor can be found anywhere nearby.
Amnestics
Class-A Amnestics, liquid form, sufficient dose to erase memories up to three hours before use.
00:07
████████ places the camera back on the table, facing the items, and is shown walking to the sink and retrieving a glass of water. He takes several tablets from the two blister packs, including the entirety of the diazepam. As he steps in front of the camera fully, it becomes apparent that he is physically aroused.
00:12
The camera is placed on a shelf, halfway behind a can of coffee, and ████████ leaves the room. He verbally prompts SUBJ-0169-LT to come to the kitchen, stating that he is going to prepare for bed. Approximately 30 seconds later, the subject enters the room, sniffling. When she reaches the table, she tosses two used tissues onto its surface, turns around, and yells to ████████. Soon after, he returns.
SUBJ-0169-LT: What the fuck is wrong with you? I thought you were joking.
████████: I told you already.
SUBJ-0169-LT: No? You told me you were messing around…
████████: Did I?
SUBJ-0169-LT: What even are these pills… did you seriously take all of these!?
Subject speaks quietly to herself as she reads the backs of the blister packs.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Diazepam, that's a sedative… sildenafil—
████████: Just read the packages, I don't need to hold your hand.
SUBJ-0169-LT: What's sildenafil?
████████: It doesn't say it?
SUBJ-0169-LT: No?
████████: You'll see…
SUBJ-0169-LT: No, I won't see. I'm not gonna do it, I promise you.
████████: Don't be stupid. You're already in fucking pain.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Trust me, I can wait until tomorrow.
████████: You know what happens — remember those pictures they showed us? I'd rather not have to fuck your internal organs, I think.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Of course I remember the goddamn pictures, I think about them constantly.
████████: I do, that's why I'm telling you to be reasonable. Don't you trust me?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Why the fuck would I? You just want me to be desperate enough to 'get even'.
████████ does not respond.
00:23
SUBJ-0169-LT curses, then briefly pulls down her pants to check her undergarments. She is heard whispering the phrase, 'goddamn blood' under her breath before redressing. ████████ tuts at her, stating that she 'should think about that'. SUBJ-0169-LT then states that she is leaving to use the facilities. ████████ picks up the handcuffs, yet leaves the amnestics behind. He takes the camera off the shelf and turns it off, presumably to replace the tape.
"Bashka Tape 2"
00:00
When the second recording begins, ████████ is placing the camcorder on top of the dresser in the bedroom, angled towards the bed. He then walks to the bed and lays down, already appearing unsteady from the medication. He secures one side of the cuffs around his right wrist and covers it with the blanket.
00:03
SUBJ-0169-LT returns, refusing to lie down and stating that there is no way that she will comply with what he is asking. ████████ replies by telling her that any consequences will be her fault alone and she will be an idiot should she not do so. She soon capitulates, joining him on the bed and staring up at the ceiling. They lay beside each other for several minutes.
00:06
Once SUBJ-0169-LT is not paying attention, ████████ grabs her left wrist, quickly securing the handcuff before she is able to pull away. Without thinking, she tries and fails to hit ████████ with her left hand. A moment later, she successfully slaps him with her uncuffed hand, managing to hit him twice before he weakly grabs her wrist.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Сукин сын! Are you fucking kidding me?
████████: You're gonna hit me first, too?
SUBJ-0169-LT: Maybe I am — you're the one that handcuffed me! Why?
████████: No doctors, no messing around behind my back. I told you.
SUBJ-0169-LT rattles the handcuffs, attempting to pull away.
████████: Don't waste your energy, honey.
SUBJ-0169-LT: You really think I'd cheat on you, ████████?
████████: No, baby, I think you'd do anything not to hurt me.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Guess I'm the only one!
████████: Know what would really not-hurt me?
SUBJ-0169-LT groans.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I said I wasn't doing that. Why won't you listen?
████████ presses on SUBJ-0169-LT's lower abdomen with his free hand. She winces in response.
████████: Hurts?
SUBJ-0169-02: Fuck you.
████████: Yeah.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I hate you.
████████: I love you, so do you really want to be worse than me? You like being better.
SUBJ-0169-LT: I told you, I won't do it.
████████: You'll be fine.
SUBJ-0169-LT: Is that why you brought those amnestics? For me?
████████: Yeah, they're in the kitchen…
00:11
SUBJ-0169-02's eyes widen as ████████ succumbs to the sedatives. She groans in anger, then punches the mattress with her free hand and curses aloud. She futilely pulls on the handcuffs again — this time, for over a minute, before going limp with her hands to her sides.
00:14
For approximately 22 minutes, SUBJ-0169-LT squirms in pain — beginning to quietly sob while curling into a fetal position, facing away from ████████. She is momentarily recorded with her hand between her legs, before holding up two fingers covered in blood. She exclaims, '…Goddamnit.' before wiping her bloody hand on her thigh and pinching the bridge of her nose, taking a deep, shaky breath.
00:36
SUBJ-0169-LT sits up, winces, then gets onto her knees. In the process, she nearly falls over onto ████████. She wipes tears from her eyes, sniffs, and spends the next few minutes attempting to remove her shorts with one hand, only able to free her left leg. She then ends up actually falling over onto ████████ during her second, failed attempt to undress.
00:40
SUBJ-0169-LT sniffles, reaching down and grabbing the waistband of ████████'s sweatpants before stopping abruptly and pulling her hand away. Trembling, she lays back down on her side, this time facing him. For the next 15 minutes, she is seen holding ████████'s hand and attempting to embrace him. Her leg and free arm are wrapped around his torso while she lays beside him with her eyes closed, still weeping.
00:55
Once SUBJ-0169-LT has sufficiently undressed ████████, she hesitates for several minutes before slowly straddling him. During this time, she is seen clutching her stomach, allowing for the presumption that her hesitancy is at least partially related to the prospect of pain. SUBJ-0169-LT takes several deep breaths, then removes her shirt and uses it to loosely cover ████████'s face.
01:01
SUBJ-0169-LT stares at the ceiling when she finally acquiesces, refusing to look down — despite ████████'s face being obscured. Throughout the following 17 minutes, she frequently whines in pain, continuing regardless of potential injury. Tears and mucus drip from her reddened face as she is rendered unable to keep herself from hyperventilating. Multiple times, she is seen gagging, then abruptly covering her mouth with both hands.
01:19
SUBJ-0169-LT collapses on top of ████████, breathing heavily. She remains silent for multiple minutes, then cries, pressing her face against his chest. During this time, there appears to be several instances in which she catches herself continuing to move her hips without thinking, then stops. She speaks in a near-whisper, 'Now we're both fucked up,' with her hands tightly gripping his shirt.
01:24
After several minutes, SUBJ-0169-LT slowly sits up, looking around the room. She stands on shaky legs, attempting to step away before being reminded of the handcuffs restricting her. ████████ remains erect from the medication, covered in her blood. She notices, looking down at him in silence for over a minute, before climbing back on top of him.
01:27
SUBJ-0169-LT is observed purposefully positioning herself to make the act painful, despite SCP-9940's satiation — only stopping when her legs become too shaky to support her. She bears her weight on ████████ and turns her head to the side, in the direction of the camera. Her face is blank, portraying little desire — if any — to engage in the act. She remains virtually expressionless until she takes an extended, wheezy breath, shudders, then goes still. Immediately after, she begins to cry.
01:45
SUBJ-0169-LT sits on the edge of the bed and stares at the wall for an extended amount of time, not bothering to wipe her tears. In the final minute before the tape runs out of recording space, she is shown standing up beside the bed, attempting to urinate into a previously empty glass with only one free hand. A large, deep red stain is visible on the sheets.
NOTE: Three requests for amnesticization were submitted to the Department of Parapsychology by SUBJ-0169-LT, coinciding with the next three times that she was compelled to interface with SCP-9940. All were denied due to her refusal to provide a detailed reason for their submission.